This is SO not a review...burp...

This kind of blankety-blank. This box of carby naughtiness is the type of thing that has been my downfall. Yes, I crave chocolate on occasion. But, most of the time, it's this kind of snack that I can blame for my undo-ing.

I'm currently reading Jillian Michael's (of The Biggest Loser fame) book, Making the Cut. And, what have I learned? Well, that I'm a "fast oxidizer" for one. And, what does that translate into in regular language? Well, carbs are not my friend.

Tell me something I don't know, Jill.

For some time I have known I needed to get on a high protein/low carb bandwagon. I've read about Glucose Load and high and low GI foods. And, I've followed women bloggers who have had luck following that way of eating.

But, what I'm struggling with right now is finding something that works for me. I have never been big into "diets," per se. I don't buy into it unless you're going to will yourself to eat that way forever and ever, amen.

Truth time here. Lately, I've been out of control with snacking and not watching what I eat. I think I've just grown tired of thinking about it all, to be perfectly honest. It is all that I can do to take all the pills I have to pop in a day for my health issues. But, preparing and planning foods ahead and writing down all that I eat. I'm soooo tired of it. I've done it off and on for so long. Yes, I've done Weight Watchers. 3 times, or maybe more...thank you.

The other night, I was at a jewelry party in my neighborhood when one of the socialite types of our neighborhood was there. Instead of being snooty as I might have expected, she was quite friendly. Now, this could have been because she was promoting her own little direct marketing business. But, something she said got my attention. When someone asked her how she stays so thin, she just came right out and said something most women wouldn't admit:

Actually, I don't eat anything. My friends and family are always worrying about me because I never eat. I've always been like this. I eat way too little and it isn't healthy.

Well, thank you for your honesty, I thought to myself! Instead of just going, "What? Oh, I don't diet." or acting like she wasn't thin at all, of which both responses I've heard many times before and it completely irritates me, she just said it like it was.

And, I kind of envied her a bit, to be honest. And, I know that's not exactly healthy to want to be like someone who has a potential eating disorder. But, when you don't have control over what you eat, it controls you. So, having too much control? Well, that would be a refreshing change.

So, I'm going to keep reading my book and I'm going to look into reducing my carbs drastically, and I'll keep on working out as usual. I'm going to try to replace the unhealthy snacks in my house (which aren't AS unhealthy as a lot of people's--I still try to find healthy options) with veggies and fruits that work both for me and for my family. Because I can't control myself around the snack mix and while it isn't fair to my kids to have to eat my restricted diet, maybe I can teach them to crave OTHER things so they don't wind up like me...

...more than a few pounds overweight with two boxes of 2 for $5 freaking snack mixes in my pantry calling my name. UGH!